It was July 20th, 2017 and Quinn drove me back to the walk in clinic to go get my first ultrasound to see how far along I was. We were both so nervous we felt sick. We were waiting in the ultrasound room and even though we were only waiting a few minutes it felt like an eternity, we were about to see our baby for the first time. I went into the ultrasound room and Quinn followed behind. I was laying down with my shirt up and the ultrasound tech squirted cold goo on my belly and started looking around. I could see Quinn was looking away from the screen and would occasionally glance at the screen. My heart was beating so fast and all of a sudden there she was there was our baby. She was so tiny, it still didn’t feel real that she was in my belly, that we had made that. It was crazy thinking that this was something that was half of me and half of him. The tech then told us that I was a couple months pregnant and proceeded to look for her heartbeat and started to play it so that we could hear it, I didn’t think she would have a heart beat yet being that small. After we were done we walked out of the clinic and went to the car. Everything was so much harder knowing she already had a heart beat. My future flashed before my eyes and I had to make the worlds hardest decision that would affect me forever no matter what decision I made.